I had one of those last night. And for a brief moment I wanted to throw it all to the wind and be without caution.
Naturally I talked myself out of it. Life changing (even crazy) should normally be avoided past 11 pm. Too many girly emotions involved. And it was almost 1.
I wonder, do these moments come out of desperation, or just boredom? Does my life need a little changing? Or am I simply in a doldrum that will pass? Surely new adventurous waters are just around the corner, if I would just wade it out. (In my head a hear repeat that warn-out phrase "This too shall pass ...") In all likelihood I simply shouldn't stay up late enough to dream up these crazy ambitions.
I am left admitting to myself that almost every time this has happened I thank myself for not being so careless as to make a life changing decision on the whim. But perhaps, just perhaps, if I had allowed myself a few more of those along the way, I might have a few more adventures under my belt. I mean life changing isn't always bad, and those that are are almost always recoup able.
I can't help but wonder if it is that I am not brave, or if it is that I am plain sensible. Perhaps there are few things in life that can be approached with such heedless care of consequence.
I hope, that when the right moments come, I am brave enough to recognize and embrace them with just the right amount of reckless abandon.
Last night, was not one of them. ;)
"...just the right amount of reckless abandon." That's a silly sentence. I'm sure you can figure out why. :P
I'm really curious about what this crazy, life-altering decision could have been. (Maybe tomorrow's blog?) I rarely have such opportunities. Or, like you, I am too sensible to do something so crazy.
The usual time for these decisions is late at night, though. It's when our sensibilities are as drowsy as our eyes, and our minds are more active, probably since our senses are on stand-by.
if the crazy thought is to throw away everything and go on an impromptu trip with a sister... I say do it (and call even if it's one a.m.).
You do take crazy leaps and throw yourself into life, I think you just don't realize it because you talked yourself into thinking it was reasonalbe. and I love you all the more for it.
I think Em's right. I mean, following your love to Alaska!?! That was embracing your life at the time. And most of us thought you were crazy. :) (In a good way, of course.) How about giving up your relatively comfortable life to pursue your education and long-term career? That takes serious guts and a willingness to take risks.
But I do agree that most of these decisions should be made in the light of day(s). Love you!
I suppose it depends on the situation. I've wanted to quit my jobwith reckless abandon 4 times TODAY! But I don't. That's sensibility.
I'd say impulsive spending where the gains outweigh the cost (trips, love, etc.) are always worth it.
When this fog lifts I bet you'll find the New Adventurous Waters Just Around the Corner still have a thick layer of ice over them. :)
Em&M obviously know you well enough to agree that you DID take the time to weigh the pros and cons before choosing against this mystery opportunity/bad idea.
I'm glad you and Dan have this competition going on. Hopefully more of his followers start commenting as it gives me more to think on during "drive time".
So...@ M and V_J... I, um, safely chose not to comment on Erin's Yoga vs. Catholic Faith topic, but I'm sure glad you two did!
It is not a silly sentence Dan.
Chad how is that supposed to be helfpul? Ahoy! Ice covered waters ahead!
Thanks Megan and Emily. You guys are always so encouraging. ;)